Softball Game 4 - wedding version, Football Game 2- if that

 Softball earlier this week was pretty fun. Hit two hard grounders (out on both), but didn't get any plays in the field. Amazing the contrast between playing outfield in slow pitch vs. fast pitch. I regretted coming to softball because it was in the middle of my good frien'd wedding. I was there for Kabbalat Panim etc, but missed Chuppa and chilling with friends, and most of the first dance. I regretted it already on the way to the wedding, but my team was 9, and I still feel like this is a tryout. I got back for the rest of the wedding, which was fun, and I had one of the most delish hamburgers (hamburgers at a wedding?) ever. 

Football was very disappointing on Friday.  I only played 15 total snaps in a doubleheader, and even those I pushed to get in. We had 15 guys there for a 5 on 5, and we have 7 national team players. I was so frustrated I left before the end of the second game. I don't mind being a backup, I've done it before. I also understand the concept of wanting to win. But I didn't feel like they put me in the correct part of the depth chart. I think there are 5-6 better players than me, but they put me way at the bottom. It was frustrating to be there for almost 2 hours and play 15 snaps vs other I think I am better than who played much more. And most frustrating was that I didn't get the chance to prove where I think I should be on the depth chart. I decided then and there to not come to more games with a lot of people coming. 

Both coaches texted me after, to which I voiced my complaints. One said he is a big believer in giving chances, and he will let me prove my case on the field. The other (main) coach walked me through each and every player on the roster and why they are probably better than me (even though in the only game he ever saw me play I had 2 picks and 2 tds). They also sent out an excel with rotations, and they have me in on offense every ninth(!) drive, and defense every 4th. There isn't even nine drives every half/game in this league. I am debating if to request a trade to another team, but we are very few players signed up for this Thursday night. I will see how that goes and then decide if to request a trade.